First let me just apologise about the state of Part 2. My work blocks my blog so I had to post that from my phone. No excuse really but there it is.

Well I got to work this morning and there, sitting in my Gmail inbox was an email from my Dad. It took me about half an hour to actually open it. I was scared silly. I finally plucked up the courage and read it. It was short and to the point but I cried any way. He wants me to call him so we can talk.

I tried to respond to his email but kept deleting it. Finally I sent an email to my aunt telling her how I felt, these emotions that are boiling up in me are hard to explain. I’m happy, sad, scared, elated and have 6 billion thoughts all bouncing around at the speed of light.

My mobile rang with a private number about half an hour later. It was my aunt, calling from Florida just to make sure I was okay. It was the first time I’d ever spoken to her. It was amazing and I cried some more. My boss asked if I was alright, I gave her the short version, she told me to go home and just process everything that is going on.

So now, I still haven’t emailed my Dad, I was feeling much more relaxed, That was until I started thinking about what I’d say in my email. Now the panic is setting back in! What the hell do I say? How can I slice open my chest and pour out everything that is swarming around in there in to an email? I can’t call him a) it’s 4am and b) I think my heart would leap out of my mouth!

So where does that leave me? Right where I started. I just have to shot off a short “Hi Dad, good to hear from you” email.

How hard can it be?

I’ll let you know.

Peace